NEW YEAR

im so glad that it is a new year.

i know that nothing is going to change that fast, but its nice to have the fresh start feeling.

i don't really have a new years resolution, because i never stick to it :/

but i do plan on being happier, and letting people in

let me explain 2008

it started off bad with just the whole school thing.

everyone was acting so fake, so manipulative. 

Using you for their own selfish reasons.

thats when i stopped trusting people

it got alittle better by summer, because i was constantly working out

and that kept my mind busy and focusing on something else.

but by the end of summer it just got worse,

i was falling for a guy that would never in a million years have the same feelings for me.

so that kinda started off school bad from the start.

im back with the same o'l people that piss me off,

i have my mind on this stupid guy,

and then i have the pressure to perform well in sports.

then all the girls started copying what i did

for example, i wear black nail polish... 6 other girls wear it the next day

talking about how i want tattoos ( according to my school tattoos are a sin),

all the girls were like eww gross, ohh but the next day... i want this tattoo and that. 

SICKKKKKKKKK

so i just stopped talking to all the girls period,

so i became real good friends with the guys, 

but according to everyone else that makes me a skank

so i backed off guys and girls for awhile

but this one kid comes and he is like to die for

and he likes me at first but then stops because i don't do it w/ guys.

(i want to do it w/ someone special, not some random hook up)

but meanwhile i can't stop thinking about this other guy, the one before.

so my year kinda ended like that....

hopefully 2009 will be better than that :)